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Jul
08

Everyday is Like Sunday, Except for Blue Monday and Ruby Tuesday and…Well, Friday I’m in Love: Weekly Mix #24

I was a strange child. Well, that only figures since I’m a strange adult. However, one of the strangest things about me as a child was my keen sense of nostalgia and self-reflection. My first memory of this was New Years Eve 1989 – I was seven, but I knew the decade was changing, and I felt a profound sense of loss about never being able to return to the 80’s. Time marched on and no one could ever go back, and that did a number on me as a child. The next time I panicked was when I turned ten – this time, I was keenly aware of the fact I could never go back to a single digit age. If anything, my tenth birthday was more traumatizing than my thirteenth, sixteenth, eighteenth, and twentieth, and it likely prepared me for all these other “landmark” birthdays. Perhaps I had an overdramatic outlook on life, or an overdeveloped romanticism, or maybe I was just bonkers. The best way to explain my emotional state when these changes occurred, changes which didn’t even register with regular kids, is that it felt like leaving the movie theatre after the end of a particularly amazing film or watching the last episode of a television series you enjoyed for a long time, knowing it had to end, but also knowing you could never encapsulate that moment again. To combat all of these feelings, I think I tried to arrest my development for as long as possible. I never looked forward to growing up like other children did. I never felt like adults had it better or had more freedom – it’s like I knew that being a child was the best time of my life before I even left it behind. The last time I felt unequivocally happy and satisfied with life was when I was eleven years old.

Adolescence was still a relatively naive time for me, but at the same time, I couldn’t capture the unbounded creativity and self-assurance of my childhood – I had written three novels by the time I was fourteen, but then I stopped writing creatively until I was in my first year of university, and even then, I found it rather difficult. I was caught in a weird dichotomy of naivete and intellectual maturity, and I swung between the two like a pendulum throughout my teenage years. I entered my most embarrassing period of music for a couple of years in high school, following my friends’ penchant for diabolical, vapid pop music of the worst kind, but at the same time, I penned the following poem at age fifteen:

Generation X

Indecision, indifference,
A bleak yet volatile combination.
Standing on the brink of nothingness,
Knee-deep in aromatherapy and pop culture.
Numbing from the coldness of society
Moving to the extremities.
Intellect maturing beyond experience
Futile, but articulate.
Pressure to be perfectly imperfect
Perhaps even cynicism is parried by apathy
A confused, deviant future
Labelled Generation X.
A variable without a common denominator,
Nevertheless, a variable that equates
The future.
A category derived by psychoanalysis,
Making a vain attempt to conceptualize people
Terming them as gothic rebels with a cause;
Excuses made for them, telling them what the inkblots mean;
In actuality, they are raging against the stereotypes
Searching for hope in a frantic world;
Varying, a spectrum of integrity,
as much as ‘x’ suggests,
Desperately clutching the receiver
listening to the busy signal
From a world that has hung up on them.

Whew. I hadn’t even heard of Douglas Coupland at this point in my life. Nor was I even a member of “Generation X” – I missed that by a whole generation. I won fourth prize from the Poetry Institute of Canada for this little piece of poetry (my guess is the ones who actually won monetary prizes may not have been so bleak). Sufficed to say, I haven’t really written poetry since.

Throughout my teens, my preemptive need for nostalgia and bizarre fear of the loss of cultural artifacts manifested itself in my compulsive documentation via video and audio cassette. I still have over a hundred videotapes of all sorts of things (interviews, music videos, television shows, movies, advertisements, etc., and I recorded tons of material off the radio at the time – even the stuff I didn’t particularly like – with the rather odd feeling that I may want or need to listen back to it in the future – for the record, I don’t think it’s worth my time or my ears at this point…if anything, these tapes are a concrete document of the bad mainstream music scene of the late 90’s and evidence for anyone who wants me sectioned). And I have a feeling no one, including myself, will be interested in VHS copies of the short-lived TV series Teen Angel. Maybe I should have taken anthropology in university instead.

I am getting to a point somewhere here, and not just to conclude that I was a cracker as a child and teenager. I decided to make a mix of music that either celebrates or encapsulates that feeling of being young. From those simple chords of Baba O’Riley that always make my heart pump faster to the wild vindication I feel listening to Stay Beautiful, this mix will attempt to catch that romantic notion of youth, whether as a child or an adolescent. That feeling that your whole life is still ahead of you and you still have so much potential to explore. That feeling that living fast and dying young is a brilliant idea. That feeling that things could never be this good again. I’m going to call it I Don’t Wanna Grow Up. And yes, I realize I didn’t include Teenage Kicks, but that was because I already posted that song in a previous mix, and that also goes for Whipping Boy’s When We Were Young.

Eanie Meanie – Jim Noir

Childhood Memories – British Sea Power

Pumpkin Soup – Patrick Wolf

Sixteen – The Indelicates

Pretty Young Thing – Blondfire

So Young – Suede

One More Lie In – The Delays

Time to Pretend – MGMT

Baba O’Riley – The Who

Teenage Lust – The Jesus and Mary Chain

Stay Beautiful – Manic Street Preachers

The Prayer – Bloc Party

Antmusic – Adam and the Ants

You Were Young – The Associates

Once and Never Again – The Long Blondes

Alright – Supergrass

You! Me! Dancing! – Los Campesinos!

Burn Baby Burn – Ash

Teenage Thunder – Sigue Sigue Sputnik

Rebel Yell – Billy Idol

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4 Responses to “Everyday is Like Sunday, Except for Blue Monday and Ruby Tuesday and…Well, Friday I’m in Love: Weekly Mix #24”


  1. 1 JC
    July 9, 2008 at 8:18 pm

    Wow. I don’t really know what to say as the words alone wont capture the effect reading that has had on me.

    Suffice to say that I felt much the same as you when I was 15 back in the late 70s, but there’s no way I could ever have articulated it like that.

    ” In actuality, they are raging against the stereotypes
    Searching for hope in a frantic world;”

    It was new wave music that saved me…..that and having an ability to escape into higher education rather than a job in a factory that was doomed to close just 3 or 4 years later thus ageing my friends prematurely as they worried about their futures what with the girlfriend/wife and one on the way….

    You’ve inspired a posting at TVV…..

  2. 2 Darren
    July 11, 2008 at 4:51 am

    Aye, but what about Thursday?

  3. 3 sm255
    July 15, 2008 at 2:19 pm

    You’ve described your experiences very evocatively. But I was thinking, you know, I think these experiences you describe are a boy thing. I don’t know any women who have (or had) these feelings as they grew up: “That feeling that your whole life is still ahead of you and you still have so much potential to explore. That feeling that living fast and dying young is a brilliant idea. That feeling that things could never be this good again.” At least, I’ve never read any woan writing about that, or had any of my friends say anythign like that at all.

    You know, like near the end of the Tom Hanks movie Big: little boy Tom says to grown-up lady Elizabeth Perkins, Come back & be a kid with me. And she says Oh no, no, I could never go through all that again.

  4. 4 anglopunk
    July 15, 2008 at 11:14 pm

    @sm255

    I’m not sure how to respond, considering the fact I’m a female. It just proves to me yet again, that I don’t fit nicely into gender boundaries. That’s me, a square peg. I like to think the gender boundaries are the problem, mind.


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But I've never caught a glimpse

Of how the others must see the faker

I'm much too fast to take that test

The Smiths Queen is Dead

A dreaded sunny day

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And I meet you at the cemetry gates

Oh, Keats and Yeats are on your side

A dreaded sunny day

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Keats and Yeats are on your side

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The Clash London Calling

When they kick at your front door

How you gonna come?

With your hands on your head

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Charles Windsor, who's at the door

At such an hour, who's at the door

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Smashing up my face like a bus-stop

You think you're giving

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(and the skin flies all around us)

We kiss in his room to a popular tune

Oh, real drowners

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Don't walk away

In silence

See the danger

Always danger

Endless talking

Life rebuilding

Don't walk away

Walk in silence

Don't turn away in silence

Your confusion

My illusion

Worn like a mask of self-hate

Confronts and then dies

Don't walk away

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You don't want to hurt me

But see how deep the bullet lies

Unaware I'm tearing you asunder

Oh there is thunder in our hearts

Is there so much hate for the ones we love

Tell me we both matter don't we

The Associates Affectionate

I don't know whether

To over or under estimate you

Whether to over or under estimate you

For when I come over

You then put me under

Personal taste is a matter of gender

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I wake at dusk to go alone without a light

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I want to feel

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You'll never watch your life slide out of view

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Vanilla Swingers

All I have is words, words that don't obtain

And I feel I'm a stain on your horizon

So I stay away - it's easier that way

And there won't be no-one I need to rely on

Is it him, is it me

Or is there something only I can see

How did I get here, why do we blow around like straw dogs on the breeze

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You don't need exams when you've read John Gray

The Indelicates American Demo

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Absolutely anyone can play the fucking guitar

JAMC Darklands

And we tried so hard

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Shaved her leg and then he was a she

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Take a walk on the wild side

Said, hey honey, take a walk on the wild side

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Hide on the promenade

Etch a postcard:

How I dearly wish I was not here

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Back when we were kids

We would always know when to stop

And now all the good kids are messing up

Nobody has gained or accomplished anything

Wire Pink Flag

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Casualties increase as the enemy shell

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But all I've ever learned from love

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It's not somebody who's seen the light

It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah

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To all tomorrow's parties

For Thursday's child is Sunday's clown

For whom none will go mourning

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I won't tell anybody

If you want to use my body

Go for it

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Oh it's opening time

Down on Fascination Street

So let's cut the conversation

And get out for a bit

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And I'm begging

To drag you down with me

Mansun Six

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Did you see the way I cowered to authority

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It's a sham, and I'm conditioned to accept it all, you see

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They fall in love, they fall in love

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I know we suffer for fashion

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It's not supposed to happen like that

Longpigs The Sun

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Make me smell like myself

So I put on perfume

To make me smell like someone else

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Greatest lay I ever had

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Sister feeling call

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Your funny name

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Augment a beautiful brunette

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How does it feel

To treat me like you do

When you've laid your hands upon me

And told me who you are

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She's not crying

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Feeling like I'm waiting

Modern times

Valentines

Hating

Hating to distraction

Just leave them alone

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Girls in the back

Girls in the back

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And you tell me what you need

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Going round in a circle I can't get out

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Then you look around - there must be some explanation

And the tension builds

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India, India

You're my love song

India, you're my love song

In the flowers

You can have me in the flowers

We will dance alone

And live our useless lives

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Cut off your hair yeah that's it!

If you look like that I swear I'm gonna love you more

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Burning all the old folks, the witches and the liars.

My eyes are covered by the hands of my unborn kids

But my heart keeps watchin' through the skin of my eyelids

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Prince charming

Ridicule is nothing to be scared of

Don't you ever, don't you ever

Stop being dandy, showing me you're handsome


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